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AHHHH!!!!

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 23:46:13 GMT

I GOT MY TICKETS! I GOT MY TICKETS! I AM SO EXCITED! THEY ARE COMING IN THE MAIL.....WOO AND HOO

SOUTHSTOCK!!!!

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 19:23:00 GMT

So my school has this "battle of the bands" ish thing every year....its called southstock....becuase my schooll...is called....SOUTH grenville....see where it comes from...ha...they are clever eh. and last year...erica ran it. this year. since she is gone and moved...i offered to run it....i was so excited today when the owner of the school (aka the prez of fusion, our schools like....student...council...thinger) came up to me and said "i heard you wanna run southstock" i was like "um...yep..." so he told me all this info like how its on october 20th. and i have to sign all theses form thingers for use of the gym...and that it is going to be from 7-10....LAME! i am going to try and get it to go later...or start earlier...i dunno....but i was uber excited today. because lots of people are really happy that it is me running it...some people even said "well...who else could do it?" so i was very flattered. and lost of people offered to help me run it. and get like...bands and stuff...i already have one....garunteed....haha jacobs band. but i think it will be okay....it is weird...ive never done any after school activities....im kind of nervous :S

first day of poop.....

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 23:47:53 GMT

Last year of high school!!! holy moses! its wild....i dont feel that old. today officially sucked though. my anxieties about my friends thinking i ditched them were right on the money...i just do not feel close to them at all....when i am around them. all i can think about is how much more fun i will be having if i was with jacob...its not just because i am smitten. it is because they are jerks today i wore my forgive durden tshirt. and my "friend" michelle comes up to me and like...grabs at my sweater and goes "f---err...give...DOOR....deeen?what is that? it sounds lame..." and i was all like...proud. im like "yeah...its a pretty cool band...i got to meet them..." and she goes "ha....yep. i was right...its lame" then she starts laughing like an idiot....honestly. i dont know how i ever became friends with people like that in the first place. and all my classses are with all the yuppies that i have been trying to avoid....its awful. i know that i should be like....nice to everyone...but its so hard with those jerks...they are just rude and ignorant and they make everyone feel like shit...i mean...they are nice to me. but i see how they treat other people. and it makes me crazy. but its like...i can't escape it.its awful...highschool is so juvenile and everyone is sooo imature...like jake was at my locker. and michelle goes up to him and is like "HELLO BOYFRIEND....im so happy i get to tease you guys now" and i was like "ugggh grow up..." i have zero classes with him. which sucks...but oh well...in the past 3 years i had only ever had one class with him...so i kinda figured we wouldnt have anything together...also...i had to drop out of a math class because i am not smart enough...the funny thing is...the class was data management....like...graphs and stuff...yeah....dumbdumbdumb. the parents were not impressed...my dad especially...i think he thinks im going to fail at life now....oh well...maybe i am

oh and also.

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 03:59:41 GMT

also. i went to the wedding. i ended up wearing the brown dress. and got this nice picture taken of us infront of the church...i look pregneant in it...because i am slouchy....but oh well....hahah

lotsa new things....well. not really.

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 03:51:20 GMT

I haven't posted in a while...just because I am too lazy.but i have been very busy the past couple days. i went to brampton to visit my bestes pally erica...we went to a concert...woo...to see forgive durden...which was pretty sweet. and we met them...and shane from silverstein was randomly there watching the show. and erica like....scoped him out with her "shane-dar" and we got a pic with him.a nd met him...we also just mingled with all the bands....except the headliner....(saosin) i didnt like the one guys moustache. so it was okay. i dont like them much anyway....
Then after that...my fella (jacob) picke dme up at the train station. i was so happy to see him...but the very nextday i couldnt see him because my cousin came down....but i still hung out with him on monday night. just to get in all the kissing i could before my dreaded wisdom teeth operation :S but monday was good...i got home at like...2am...which is actuallyreally late for me because i am a stick in the mud kid who always does good things....so my mom was surprised. then on tuesday i hung out with my cousin. which was cool...and today...uuuughh. i got my wisdom teeth out...:( it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be....but italso wasnt as good...i am in no pain...but my bottom lip is still frozen. like...10 hours later....but ah well. i am dealing with it...
i felt really bad....jacobs band had another show in ottawa today. and once again...i couldnt go...i feel awful. he supported me so much this summer...coming to three of my performances...not including a sunday show...so he came to see me act a total of 4 times! and i have never even seen his band play....:(

goiiing to the chapell....

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 20:41:53 GMT

My cousin got married yesterday. I went to the wedding, brought Jacob with me. it was fun....ish. ahah my family is pretty much nuts. but they really liked him. and i think he liked them. my aunt said "hes fucking gorgeous!! he looks like somebody. i know it. in a band...or an actor....i dont know. but one night im going to be watching tv and im gunna go........... FUCK! THATS HIM!" and my grandma said he was a sweetheart. i was very happy. they also said that they liked jacob better than my cousin alyssas boyfriend...mwah ha ha. it was nice to be at a wedding and have someone to dance with. haha. normally i am the one who sits at the table all night complaining that theres no one to dance with, because i am basically...related to everyone. buuut not last night. it was very sweet. and i think my uncle got a very nice picture of us when we were dancing. im going to have to get that from him. i dont take many pictures so i havent taken any with him. i should get on that.

niagra falls. and such.

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 19:18:07 GMT

so today i had to go to the hospital for the most redundant thing ever....i had to take a pregnency test. because apparently when i go in for my "surgery" i can't be preggers...but they could have just asked me and saved me the humiliation.....i guess i cannot pee on demand.....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA the lady is like "this is it?" im like "yep....i didnt have to go...you should feel lucky..." HAHAHAHA

random babbling....what?

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 18:36:56 GMT

My minds all....full right now...i think i may go crazy.

I have established myself into a routine. days off to do whatever, nights, i do the show. I have been so independant of late. its odd. I feel like i have grown up alot. and the fact that i dont see anyone other than my boyfriend kinda makes me feel cut off from everyone. but you know what? i dont mind. i dont care that right now. hes the only one i talk to. and all the other friends i have that enjoy talking to.live like, 4 hours away...

This past week i hung out with my friends and it just made it more clear that you leave for a couple weeks and everything changes....maybe ive changed...but for once in my life. im happy with who i am and what i am doing. and hanging out with them. they made me feel stupid and inferior. and i was like "wtf. i dont need this." it made me so sad though. because these are supposed to be my best friends....my posse. but i can really see myself making new friends this year. because i definatley cannot see myself spending a year talking about ridiculous things with them. all they do is gossip about people i hate. its always been like that. but they were just there. they were friends i had to fill the lonely. but i am happy now. i have found some real people to associate with. and i dont need them............wow. if only they could hear me say that...how mad they would be...."you ditched us for your boy!!!" no....i ditched you because you are jerks.

grade 12. then i am done. i am not looking forward to the social scenes that i am going to have to deal with at school. im PETRIFIED of what that will do to my relationship. its always been just the two of us. we've never had to deal with other people. its summer. we dont see anyone

k well. i am talking to my friend chels right now. and we are having a great discussion about this.....gooood...it is nice thearapy....

what dress to wear!?!?!?

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 19:47:11 GMT

So I am going to a wedding in like..2 weeks. and i have 2 dresses that i can wear. i do not know what one to chooose! i like them both.
Thats my New dress i just bought.....
Thats my old grad dress that I could also wear.

I don't know which is better....:S don't mind my hair/face in those pictures. I had Just gotten out of the pooool. haha

will i ever be wise again?

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 17:20:35 GMT

So i remembered what i forgot to say yesterday. It was about how scared shitless I am of getting my wisdom teeth out. I am being put in the hospital, and put to sleep. and whatnot. and just...ARRGH. it is scary. I would be very greatful to hear any "I-had-them-out-and-it-went-fabulous" stories....rather than the "I-had-them-out-and-it-was-the-worst-experience-of-my-life" stories...those ones aren't so re-assuring. :S

pfft..

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 05:44:41 GMT

Oh has there ever been a more tired little girl?
I do not think so.
7 shows to go until closing....
Can I make it? We shall see.
What if the Sexton just...didn't show up?
Would that ruin the play? I don't think it would.

But I shall finish it out. Just for fun. Because God knows I didn't take this "Job" for the money.
I sacrificed an ENTIRE month of my summer...well over a month. if you count the three weeks rehearsal.

I sacrificed it all so that i could act in a real show.
I got nothing in return. well. except experience. which i suppose is priceless.

Oh well I am over it. also. I have forgotten what i wanted to say.....

Shakespeare Pictures

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 19:53:03 GMT

So I play the sexton in this years shakespere festival, we're doing "Much Adoe About Nothing" its an alright time. other than the fact I have not much of a social life anymore. And I get hit on by the creepy drama boys....ah well.
Me in my costume

Me and Anwyn. She is playing a boy so she has a moustache. and one of the other actors thought we were dating. :S haha

Top reasons why Erica is my best friend.....

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 03:58:57 GMT

This is Lame...but I was just thinking about her....hahaha
1. She listens to me when i am whiney....
2. She tells me to smarten up when i am whiney...
3. She is the most fun person ever...
4. We go on hikes together and have picnics around the creek.
5. She will splash water on me when we go on our death walks.
6. She will hold my hand and sing to me when i am giving blood/drunk
7. She will spend 2 hours getting gum out of my hair.
8. She knows what I am thinking sometimes before I do.
9. She will cry with me when at Bright Eyes concerts.
10. She makes me Kraft Dinner.
11. She gave me some sweet nic-nacks when she moved.
12. She is keeping in touch with me even though I am lame.
13. She will let me be June Carter when we sing Johnny Cash songs.
14. We can get excited about things and make "possible set lists" and whatnot.
15. She drew me a wicked picture of Conor Oberst. That is still hanging on my wall.
16. "Pouuuurrrrrinnnng sommmmmmmeeeeeee Whiiiisssskeyyyy....gunna get drunnnnnnnnnnnk!!!"
17. She danced. And Conor SAW her. :)
18. When I first met her. She threatened to take me down....
19. We celebrate Canada Day early....
20. She forced me to drink coffee.
21. She wears rain bonnets when it is not raining. in Wal-Mart.
22. We have lovely convorsations in movie theatres ("look its a rhino!" "what did she say??" "she said. look its a rhino")
23. She was the only person I hung out with on the weekends.
24. Marathons of Supernatural.
25. Sing alongs...."and fall!"
26. She randomly kisses people...i may act like i dont like it...but i do :P
27. I love her like my sister.
28. She has impacted my life....even though she might not see it.
29. She makes me neat things. like livejournals and userpics.
30. "She is my friend//of all friends//she is still here//when everyones gone//she doesnt have to say a thing//we just keep laughing//all night long" from "Displaced" by Azure Ray....reminds me of her....
:)

not sure what to call this....

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 21:16:20 GMT

so yes....at 1:07 tonight, i had an epiphany..well it wasnt really an epiphany, as much as a convorsation with one of my best friends, that just made me think....
the topic was relationships. what was said basically was how they are not good at all...being with someone really openss you up to so many uncertanties....ive personally noticed that you can be the most confident person ever, but once you find out someone is interested in you, you become this akward little girl who worries and overanalyzes everything...well thats just me maybe...and i dont understand it, shouldn't you feel more confident in yourself if you find out that someone likes you? why is it that people can't just be upfront with what they think...there is so much self doubt and so much uncertainty..."do they feel the same?", "do they like me as much as i like them?", "what do they really think of me?"....im not liking this tenseness that seems to come hand in hand with being involved with someone else....gah....

All sad and whatnot...

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 02:59:49 GMT

So today was probably the last day i would be hanging out with erica for a while...i am sad...very sad...over the past year that i've known her, she has been my best friend. I can't imagine not hanging out with her all the time. seriously, i am lame and only have basically one person i hang out with outside school. and its herr...so now i am just going to be a loner i suppose. well...im kinda a bit too sad to write..........i dont really have anything to say....oh well...

Why don't boys ever get bitten by the acting bug?

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 02:04:54 GMT

Sooo today I had to go to the second audition for this years shakespere festival, i was already in it, but they had to audition boys, and they wanted us there to make sure we had "chemistry". SOo we get there and no joke...there is 4 boys. thats it. 4....out of a whole town and surrounding towns.....4 boys thought "hey, lets act" I dont understand why its always girls. I mean its kind of like a reversal of a long time ago when girls were not allowed to act and they needed boys to play girls, now i am finding that girls are needed to play boys. Last year in our school play they had to change some characters around and make previously male characters, female, and then this year alot of girls had to play boys. I had to even strap down my breastesesssss with tensor bandages. (not that it made that much of a difference). Then i went to this theatre thinger in Toronto and in a group of like 24, there was only 3 boys, and this was open to like...the whole country. And now this shakespere thing......it depresses me....

got a live journal...i feel cooool

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 21:39:22 GMT

So I have this friend. She is a dear one. She is procrastinating and has taken it to the next level, instead of doing the smart thing and finishing her essay, she has chosen to make me a live journal. Although this decision may prove disastrous to her academic career, It's pretty sweet and I'm gunna thank her. THANK YOU ERICA FOR MAKING ME THIS SWEET LIVE JOURNAL!! you = my hero!